Planning a Surprise

So it’s supposed to be “our month” this month. We’re supposed to celebrate our first year together. I planned a lot of things for this. I lined up all the overrated cheesy things that couples do and I plan to propose that we do every single one in that list. By the time the month ends, we would have HHWW in Luneta, played hide and seek, watched a cheesy tagalog film, went to the zoo, fed each other pancit, sang to each other while walking along the bay and a whole lot of other things and it would have been nauseating but amusing and awesome. This would have been a month for the books.

But then something unexpected happened. His relatives from the states came home.

Now let it be known that my boyfriend belongs to a tightly knit family. They’re the type of people who does everything together. They love bonding with each other, going out to eat, visiting each other’s houses to eat, going to the beach, everything. They just can’t get enough of each other. It’s cute, really.

However, because of that, all the plans and preparations I’ve been making would come to a screeching halt. His family now occupies every weekend of July. His mom would be coming home from the US too, and yes that means minus more days for us.

It didn’t help of course that his cousin— okay, I won’t go there. Anyway, it just absolutely crushed me. I know that anniversaries and stuff shouldn’t mean that much anymore to me but it still does, tremendously in fact. I’m just a girl. I love making a big deal out of things. And this IS a big deal. If this was done in any other month and in any other day, it wouldn’t be the same.

There are 12 months in a whole year… why this July. Why.

I’m sad. and paranoid.

Your Girlfriend and your friend who is a girl

Heh. My friend used to play that part. She had a really good guy friend whose girlfriend really ticks her off. She has been friends with the guy for a long time and here comes the girlfriend suddenly snatching her very good friend away from her. They don’t spend time with each other like they used to, they don’t talk that much anymore… a lot has changed since the girlfriend moved into her friend’s life and she hated it.

I tried sympathizing with her and looked at it from her point of view. It did seem unfair. A good friendship ending just like that would make anyone hate the one causing it. I used to think that way too until I lost my now ex-boyfriend to another.

That’s probably where I got all the crazy shit in my head from. All that looming girlfriend paranoia I can’t seem to shake off came from the realization that a purely platonic relationship between a guy and a girl is virtually impossible. You’ll probably argue vehemently about having your own opposite-sex bestfriend and never, EVER once thinking about him/her in a more-than-friends way so spare me all that lecture, okay? I know what you’re going to say and I have already taken that into consideration.

Your girlfriend is someone who is (in most cases) new in your life. You have your high school friends, your college buddies, your co-workers. You have all these people who shared a part of your life already and here comes your girlfriend suddenly holding the highest regard even though her ties with you can’t even compare to the age of the ties you have with your friends. Naturally, she would want exclusivity. If you have a best-girl-friend then you have to prepare yourself for some issues. Heh.

I’m not saying that all girls are the same. Some girls are blessed with a complacent sense of self that would make her overcome issues regarding the best-girl-friend. But for paranoid girlfriends like me who already experienced trusting that “friend who is a girl” and then being completely screwed over, it won’t be that easy.

And also, I’ve seen WAAAAAAAAAAAAY too many cases of guys falling in-love with their bestfriends and girls falling in-love with their bestfriends (and ultimately breaking up with their SOs because of them) to be complacent if my boyfriend’s friend-who-is-a-girl starts calling him…

…ON THE DAY OF OUR MONTHLY KOALA DAY.

…WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER.

…JUST SO THEY CAN GO TO SCHOOL TOGETHER.

So forgive me if I didn’t take it lightly. Forgive me if I got mighty pissed at this friend-who-is-a-girl. Whom actually, I later found out had a crush on my boyfriend when they were classmates. (AH-HAH!) And also, I found out that my boyfriend had a crush on that friend-who-is-a-girl too. (DOUBLE HAH!)

Please don’t take it against me now if I’m not particularly fond of friends-who-are-girls. As I’ve said in a lot of “About Me” posts… I’m terribly, terribly insecure. And paranoid. I’m sorry.