What I Hate about (not always) being Fat.

I have just had about enough of people going “Oh my GOD, you’ve gotten very FAT!”

Here’s the thing, my weight goes from fat to not-fat like a friggin’ pendulum. When I lose weight, some people notice and compliment me for it but when I gain weight, hot damn, the whole world makes sure I never forget it.

So… yes, I’ve gotten fat again. Work and part-time has made me turn to food for comfort. Seriously, the only thing that keeps me sane in a terrible, terrible work day is chocolate. That, or a bag of chips.

But then of course I am blessed with a body that gains weight twice as fast as it loses them. So all those little snacks I stuff my face with during break time came out bulging in all the wrong places.

Sometimes I just wish I have always been fat. I hate the feeling of constantly surprising everyone I see. I’m fat. I have always been fat and will forever be fat. So please. I wish people would stop pointing out things I would not have wanted to hear repeated over and over until I’m pushed to try bulimia again. Haha.

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In other news, my best guy friend has recently started his own webcomic. First of all, I do believe in his artistic skills. He may be a crass, sarcastic jackass sometimes but he sure can draw! Though right now, he’s still practicing inking and coloring. Second, I believe wholeheartedly that he is funny. Just fuckin’ hilarious. I swear. I am not even trying to be sarcastic. He really is funny.

This webcomic he fondly called “In-Game” is a story about a bunch of people playing MMORPG. Think .hack//SIGN only humorous and light. It pokes fun at MMORPG culture and how players REALLY interact with each other in-game and how real people get so absorbed in the game they’re playing that it eventually takes over their (offline) lives.

READ IT AND LOVE IT: http://seraph.nagashiko.com/

Thank you guys. Please read it and encourage my friend by showering him with compliments. haha! But seriously, if you read Questionable Content, Octopus Pie and Anders Loves Maria (which I do, religiously) please give In-Game a chance.

Dresses and Boots – I’m a happy fattie!

I don’t know if I have mentioned it before but I’ve always dreamed of wearing mid-calf boots. I’ve always always always wanted to wear it. When I was in high school, the idea of wearing boots in the Philippines appalled me but as I grew older, I found myself wanting ever so badly to wear boots with a mini skirt or a dress. Let me get one thing straight though, when I say ‘boots that I like to wear’ I mean soft, slouchy, flat boots. Not leather, stiletto-heeled ones. I can tolerate pain almost anywhere but my feet.

Anyway, I never got to wear mid-calf boots because my legs are too fat. I’m fat generally but my legs are especially HUGE. I tried fitting boots before but.. I can never pull them all the way up. So I gave up on that dream in the same way I gave up on sporting a pixie haircut, we all know how that ended up. So understand please, that when I saw mid-calf boots, priced at 1.8k (!!!) and with an opening so wide I can just– yes, FIT MY LEG RIGHT IN, I just had to buy it!

Excuse the fattie please. In any case, even though I’m fat, I found a pair that fit me! Me and my humongous legs! YAY!!!! And the most important thing is that it’s only 1.8k!! wooot~!

In other news, I bought this dress at PrP. It looks nice, I think, but it wasn’t really my first choice. They ran out of stock of the dress that I liked. Oh well. Next time next time.

As always, excuse the fattie. I’m a happy fattie!