Hot damn, 2010 went by so fast.
I was tempted to look at my life by the decade that passed and not just this year but I figured, this year had no doubt been the most eventful year of my life so far. Just this year I was able to cover a whole gamut of emotions and experiences, most of which turned me into who I am right now.
So at the beginning of the year, I looked like this:
January 2010 (Project May 1)
I wanted to do something drastic so I cut my hair unbelievably short and then sported bangs very few girls would dare to wear. I did so because I was deeply unsatisfied with the way I looked. (not that this was an improvement of course) but I guess I just wanted change. A drastic one. Add the fact that I was severely depressed with my weight so I guess I wanted to divert the attention towards my hair instead. I vowed that this year, I WOULD lose weight. I saw some pictures from 2006 and saw how skinny I was and it made me feel really bad. I remember crying over my weight in the bathroom. Ugh.
February 2010 (no more rice!)
And then it grew to this mess. I also bought new frames. During the first part of this year, I was restless. And maybe, I wanted attention. I was already in my Lose Weight Craze and I was hopping from one diet to another. I believe that diet and workout routines are subjective, what may work for one, may not work for another. I was already getting desperate by this time and tried everything from No-Dinner Diet to Organic-Thermo-Pills. Nothing worked. Until I decided to GIVE UP RICE FOREVER.
March 2010 (birthday month yay!)
My then-boyfriend surprised me by going to my office earlier than I (ever) could and then putting origami flowers on my desk. Officemates gave me V for Vendetta. It was also around this time I think that my then-boyfriend and I started to slowly drift towards different directions. The story of this, I’d rather not disclose but I just think it’s important to pinpoint when it started to happen.
April 2010 (Losing weight: SRSBZNS)
The biggest event that happened in April 2010 I think was that Red Box trip with friends. If I recall correctly, this is also the month I started going to Gold’s Gym. And it’s no easy feat considering that I go there EVERY MORNING before I go to work. I work out for an hour, shower there and then head to the office. As for food, I will have one of TSG’s sandwiches, eat the half for lunch and the other half for dinner. I WAS DEAD SERIOUS in losing weight already.
May 2010 (Progress)
We had our Office Outing during this month. It was also during this month that I went to Club Manila East (for the first time lol) with a couple of high school friends. I wore this and was pleasantly surprised that I had somewhat reached my goal. I was still dead-set on losing 10 more pounds but I was already pretty happy with the progress. This month also marked the impending doom of my then relationship. A lot of mistakes were made, a lot of hurtful words were said and.. well.
June 2010 (Single)
My then-relationship finally ended. We saw it coming from a mile away but were just too stubborn to admit it. I experienced for around 2 months how it was to be single and BOY WAS IT CRAZY. Losing weight and at the same time suddenly becoming single has opened a wide range of complications in my life. It was fun, sure, but it was also stressful and exhausting. I met a lot of people during this time and did a lot of game writing. I found myself and got myself back, I suppose. Throughout the first part of the year, I was so concerned with losing weight and being sad and lonely that I never really got to live my life. If I wasn’t working, I was working out and in between that, I was unhappy and jealous and paranoid. Come June of this year, I got to actually live.
July 2010 (Jeans and Dates)
As a single girl, I was going out A LOT. Whether it was with friends or on dates, I was all over the place. I enjoyed myself so much that I vowed to remain single for a long time. If I had doubts that something wouldn’t last, I wouldn’t waste my time. So fervent was this resolve that the date I had with Obie took me completely by surprise. I wasn’t looking for a relationship but I guess it found me.
August 2010 (Girlfriended!)
So I became Obie’s Girlfriend this month. A whirlwind of emotions and new experiences and things-I-could-not-believe. Real, genuine laughter that my lips missed for the better part of the year. It all came crashing delightfully in my life. I shifted from lonely to confused to stressed to exhausted and then to sheer and utter mind-numbing happiness. It’s not just because of being girlfriended, it’s that feeling that I am safe to enjoy my life and no one can hurt me.
September 2010 (Green Lantern, 100 Books, Dungeons and Dragons)
Then my geekery was amplified to inexplicable heights. I was a game geek for as long as I can remember and have only dabbled in other geekery for a little bit. But starting this month I got into all sorts of comic, book and game geekery. From DC comics, to suspense novels to Dungeons and Dragons to retro gaming. I wanted to do EVERYTHING.
October (Dad, Ink and Boyfriend’s Friends)
This is the month that I was pushed waaaay out of my comfort zone. I had lunch with my family (sans mom because she’s still in Canada) got ink’d and met up with Obie’s friends (and eventually got close to them too)
November (Firsts and Birthdays)
A very special and eventful month. On top of UNDAS and spending like the whole weekend at Andong’s place and night swimming in the cold November, and celebrating my 3rd month with Obie and Obie celebrating his 23rd birthday, Obie and I were also able to do a lot of new things and discover a lot of new things together. This was also the month wherein most of the people I know celebrate their birthdays. Hehe buncha scorpios.
December (Workaholic Awards and Realizations of Falling)
Always an emotional month for me. December 2010 is not an exception. The second to the last day of the year was spent with Obie and with important realizations on principles, perspective and that elusive concept of falling.
Goodbye, 2010. You have been my Transformation Year. I have changed so much in a year. I’ve worked so hard to become a better person and you rewarded me greatly. You rewarded me with more than I could have wished for. Thank you 2010. Thank you for the lessons and the tears and the heartaches. Thank you for the laughter and the warmth and the kisses. You cut me, folded me, pound me to become THE SUPERMACHINE THAT WILL FACE 2011 WITH GUNS BLAZING.
So yes, hello 2011, LET’S DO THIS.
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Posted on December 31, 2010 by Nic
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